What will I become when I grow up?
30% answered “I want to be a Doctor”
20% answered “I want to be a Lawyer”
20% answered “I want to be an Engineer”
09% answered “I want to be a Teacher”
01% answered “I want to be happy”
That is according to my own statistics hehehe. These were
those of the possible answer that we could easily grasp as a simple and young
people as we were. Kahit dampa lang ang bahay, we still want to be a doctor. This
is our first bukang-bibig nung bata pa tayo, once we’ve been ask with this
particular question, automatic din ang sagot.. DOCTOR! To heal the sick people...
influenced by Little Miss Philippines
foreword yata eh, akala natin yun na din yung pangarap natin… nausuhan.
Sabi ko dati pag tinatong ako ni Tito, Vic and Joey kakaiba
ang isasagot ko para maiba naman.. I want to be an Astronaut!!!... pero may
isang problema natakot ako kasi baka ipa-spell sa kin mukhang mahirap ata, kaya
di na lang ako sasali ng Little Miss Philippines, pero yun parin ang
pangarap ko… I love stars kasi, clouds and kilala ko na yung mga planet sa
Solar System that time… Kaya spelling na lang ang pagtatrabahuhan ko. The
reason why most of my drawings are all about planets, colorful sky, and
magkasamang moon and sun sa iisang cloud. Hehe.. Those were the days… *sigh*
And up to now I’m still struggling of what do I want to be as
a grown up. Life is not that simple pala,
a dream will not be fulfilled in a simple canvass pala. Becoming someone i want to be… remains a riddle… a measure
that cannot be fathom… and uninterpreted signs *sigh ulet*
I’ll be turning 25 on the 5th day of May, but
when I look back on my previous trail, I found mark that I never thought of traveling,
I find it as not the same map as I use to draw when I was still enthusiast of
dreaming… It is not people expecting me to become… nor plans when I refer to it
as future... my yesterday is a tale
of worries… an evident of weaknesses, and
undying disturbance… my today is now a
new beginning a new answer to what do I wanna be when I grew up, I mean as a
grown up… at this age ngayon pa lang ulet ako totoong mangangarap… with the providence
of God, I’m luckily enjoying the unfamiliar trail… may God be with me.
I’ve been a bum for more than 4 months now… still collecting
pieces of a ruined image of my dreams. Quite confused which one to pursue.. Conservatory of Music, to be a Certified Professional Accountant, MBA
for business, MBA for Information
Technology, or just be a government employee and be an active member of our
Parish Church. Lahat sila will become
my fulfillment, fulfillment of joy, and a fulfillment as a human being… so I took
one step at a time… wala kasi akong maitulak kabigin… so I let go and Let God. To
be continued… (naks)
